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LOL, The X Factor is such a fucking farce. That entire elimination was scripted, y/y? *eyeroll* THIS SHOW. The thing is, I wouldn't mind the fuckery quite so much if it weren't so fucking PREDICTABLE.

In other news, I've... kind of given up on NaNo. IDK, it feels weird to give up on it after having done it for so long, but I guess I just wasn't feeling it this year. The main problem is that I really like my idea and want to write it well, and I know that if I write it for NaNo I'll just end up hating it and never wanting to look at it again, so it'd just be a waste.

UGH WORK TOMORROW. :(

Daily target: achieved! Yesterday I was stressing hugely about NaNo, to the point where I was quite tempted to not even bother, just because I'm really invested in my idea and didn't think I could do it justice under NaNo conditions. (Also, I've hardly done any writing this year, and 50k suddenly seemed like a massive undertaking. In other words, I'm lazy.) I didn't even start writing at midnight like I usually do, although that was also because I'd started watching Boardwalk Empire, which is brilliant except for the fact that Steve Buscemi has a really unpleasant face, and watched to watch the second episode. So it took me a really long time to force myself to start writing today, but when I did... I wrote over 1000 words in one sitting, without any procrastination breaks. It feels SO GOOD to be writing again. NaNo FTW!

How's everyone else doing? *cheers you on*

Ugh, fucking work. Today made me want to SHOOT MYSELF IN THE FACE. There's this whole new area of work that we're moving into and I just... don't want to do it. Mainly because I SUCK at it, and while I'll probably get better, in the meantime there's going to be a period of awful awfulness and I just want it to END.

Silver lining: the more I have days like this, the more I become determined to write a book that might actually sell so I can do something with my life that I actually want to do. I have an idea that I'm really excited about, the one I think I mentioned before, and I'm planning on writing the first draft for NaNo. (I'm kind of worried about that, because usually after NaNo I hate what I've written and never want to see it again, but I think if I have a tight enough plan beforehand maybe I can make something of it.)

Is anyone else planning on doing NaNo this year? I'm super excited about it but I hardly know anyone else who does it. Seriously, it's awesome; everyone (uh, with an interest in writing) should try it.

I hadn't realised that it's been nearly a week since I last posted. Um, I don't have much to report? Mostly I've just been working on 2ndyearstories, which is fun and stressful in about equal measure. But people seem to be enjoying it, which definitely makes the effort worthwhile.

And then once I've done with that I have Yuletide, ARGH. I stupidly grabbed a pinch hit (it was calling me!) so that's twice the amount I need to write, and on top of that, for my original assignment I might end up writing in a fandom that I didn't sign up for and have only started getting into now because I wasn't sparking any ideas for the fandom we originally matched on. *facepalm* It's not a small amount of canon either, but at least I'm enjoying it a lot. And then there's skins_holiday and apocabigbang! D: Somebody stop me from signing up for any more fic challenges, PLEASE.

Have a music rec! Dirt Poor Robins - The Cage. I've been looking for this album for the longest time, ever since I heard a couple of tracks a year or two ago (including their awesome cover of 'Eleanor Rigby'). I really want the actual CD because it's a concept album and apparently the liner notes add a lot, but I can't find it anywhere online. Amazon and iTunes don't even have the full album to download! But at least I have the full album now, and I LOVE it. ♥

- I got my Yuletide assignment! And even though I can't actually give it the proper attention it deserves until December, I'm already worrying about it - right now my mind is a blank when it comes to ideas. I'm sure I'll come up with something eventually (maybe once I revisit the source material) but I don't want to just cobble something together, you know? Ack. :/

- I've been watching White Collar and enjoying it (oh, Matthew Bomer, why so pretty? Must you insist on making me ~question my sexuality?) but I think it would be more fun if it was about Neal actually committing his crimes and Peter trying to catch him, instead of Neal helping Peter solve crimes. Sort of like an American Hustle, but with a prettier cast and shinier backdrop.

- Re. The X Factor last night: Fuck you, Olly Murs, for ruining my favourite Queen song. HOW is this guy the favourite to win? Also, Jedward were just kind of... boring.

- I need to get on with NaNo. To get back on track today I need to write 3650 words, and so far I've written... 12. It isn't even a complete sentence!

- Anyone who wants to sign up for skins_holiday, now's the time to do so! Sign-ups close tomorrow at 11pm PST. It's an exchange open for fic writers, vidders, and graphics makers, and I think it's going to be a lot of fun, so go and sign up! :D!

- I'm really overwhelmed by the response that 2ndyearstories is getting. ♥ I'm having fun writing it and I'm just really thrilled that other people seem to be enjoying it. Honestly, the whole thing is really far outside of my comfort zone, both in that it's a big ensemble piece, and also because I'm posting it as an unedited WIP (omg scary!), and I'm just really happy that it seems to be working. ♥

- It looks like yuletide sign-ups are going to open soon? SO EXCITED. Although I haven't yet managed to whittle down my five requests to four. :/ I had them all planned out, but then I started watching Parks & Recreation and craving Leslie/Ann fic, so one of the other requests has to go. DILEMMA.

- I'm listening to Girls Aloud on shuffle and it's making me sad that they've been put on hold while National Treasure Cheryl Cole pursues her rubbish solo career. Girls Aloud's entire discography >>>>>>> 3 Words.

This is entirely jengrrrl's fault, but: I find myself tempted to sign up for apocabigbang. And that's bad, because a) I don't have a plot bunny, b) plot and world-building is not my strong suit, and c) I really don't need another big fic project on my plate.

I mean, there's already the 30k 80s AU, which I still haven't finished typing up, let alone started editing, and then... then there's NaNoWriMo. (For those of you who don't know, that's a writing challenge where you write a 50k novel in November.)

Now, I fucking love NaNo. I've done it for the last five years, and I've won each time, and I've always, always had so much fun with it. I've written five completely terrible original novels, and even though I've never shown anyone the stuff I've written for NaNo, I still think it's been a really rewarding experience each time and I know my writing has vastly improved because of it. I'm sort of reaching the stage with NaNo where I feel like I've got everything I can out of it as a challenge, and this year I'm really just going to do it for fun.

And you know what's fun? Writing Skins fic.

So, yeah: there's 50k of Skins fic coming your way in November, if you're interested. It's going to be, I think, a collection of interrelated stories spanning Our Heroes' second year at Roundview that will hopefully end up forming some sort of coherent whole, and I'll be posting it up as I write it, so more or less every day. There's no time for editing, so it's not going to be perfectly written, and it will probably end up veering off in unexpected directions, but that's the fun of NaNo. :D I thought I'd keep it off this journal, because I don't want to spam the fuck out of the people who aren't here for fandom reasons, so I've created a comm: 2ndyearstories. Obviously nothing will be posted there until November, but you can watch the comm if you're interested. I think it's going to be fun!