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It's been a while (holy shit, a month!) since I last updated, so I guess I should post something. Basically, in RL terms, everything kinda sucks? IDK if people remember that a couple of months ago I was told my job was in danger and I had to reapply for it - well, it turns out that even though everything was looking really positive for a while, they FINALLY stopped stringing me along and told me that I'm being made redundant. So that's, you know, awful. And I'm just in this super unhelpful place where I can't bear to actually think about it or DO anything, so I spend most of my time like, looking at adorable Glee gifs on Tumblr and trying really hard not to panic.

But in at-least-the-internet-exists-to-distract-me-from-my-woes news, at least I'm getting super into fandom again? IDEK, I've just completely become Glee's bitch. I rewatched the whole thing (well, except for A Very Glee Christmas, because that episode makes me want to stab things, and by 'things' I mean 'Artie') and somehow it was less rage-inducing this time around? Maybe I've become awesome at compartmentalising, or maybe I can just forgive a lot for the sake of hot TV lesbians.

I've even started writing fic, although IDK if I'll finish it because I don't think I've really got Santana and Brittany's voices down. We'll see. At least not having a job will leave me with more time to write fic? /silver lining

SO, BORN THIS WAY. It's all kind of cheesy and embarrassing and the spoken intro makes me want to stab myself in the face, BUT I STILL KIND OF LOVE IT? It's no Bad Romance, that's for sure, and I'll be disappointed if there aren't better songs on the album, but IDK, it's kind of irresistable. What does everyone else think?

In other news, earlier today I had an interview for the job I'm already doing. And it went pretty well! I usually suck at interviews, but I had some pretty positive feedback and I'm feeling good about it. I'm not sure if I'll get to keep my job or not but at least if I don't get it it won't be because I fucked up the interview.

- *pokes last post* Anyone else want fic? I just want lots of excuses to write!

- Stuff I am inordinately excited about: SMASH HITS LADY GAGA SPECIAL, OH MY GOD. (I'm sure people who didn't grow up with Smash Hits won't understand why this is potentially so amazing, so you'll just have to trust me that it is.) If there's not a biscuit tin interview I will be v. disappointed.

- I'm getting pretty fed up with the snow already, even though a) we haven't had a huge amount where I am, and b) I got to leave work an hour early today. The fact that I've started finding snow annoying instead of fun is a sign that I'm getting old, isn't it? :(

- Random TV rec of the day: BOARDWALK EMPIRE. Is anyone watching it? If not, you should be - it's this new HBO show about Prohibition-era gangsters and it's awesome. Honestly, I only started watching it because I heard there were lesbians (I know, I know, I'm rolling my eyes at myself too) but the whole thing is brilliant, not just that storyline.

- I still haven't seen Deathly Hallows yet. FAIL.

- I've just realised how close Skins gen 3 and US!Skins are. How has time passed so quickly? It seems like fandom is way more excited about US!Skins, which is kind of hilarious considering the initial reaction. Is anyone actually looking forward to gen 3 at all, or is everyone just expecting it to be shit?

Ugh, fucking work. Today made me want to SHOOT MYSELF IN THE FACE. There's this whole new area of work that we're moving into and I just... don't want to do it. Mainly because I SUCK at it, and while I'll probably get better, in the meantime there's going to be a period of awful awfulness and I just want it to END.

Silver lining: the more I have days like this, the more I become determined to write a book that might actually sell so I can do something with my life that I actually want to do. I have an idea that I'm really excited about, the one I think I mentioned before, and I'm planning on writing the first draft for NaNo. (I'm kind of worried about that, because usually after NaNo I hate what I've written and never want to see it again, but I think if I have a tight enough plan beforehand maybe I can make something of it.)

Is anyone else planning on doing NaNo this year? I'm super excited about it but I hardly know anyone else who does it. Seriously, it's awesome; everyone (uh, with an interest in writing) should try it.

- Today at work my boss spoke to me and told me that a) I'm doing an awesome job, b) my contract which expires in a couple of weeks is going to be renewed at least through to March, and c) she's trying to get more funding so she can pay me more. I THINK THIS COUNTS AS A GOOD DAY. \o/

- Although I did stupidly leave my umbrella on this bus this evening. My nice one. Not impressed, self.

- Stolen from ems: Some Justin Bieber song slowed down by 800%. ACTUALLY AMAZING. No, really, I've been listening to it for the past twenty-five minutes.

- I'm making good progress on my femslash10 fic, finally! Not entirely convinced it isn't shit, but I'm kind of having fun with it at least.

- Is anyone else watching Covert Affairs? I marathoned the first five episodes (can you marathon only five episodes?) and I'm enjoying it even though objectively it's not that good. Mostly I just like it as a stopgap while I wait for my other shows to start up again - so, the lulzy spy capers will do until Chuck comes back, and the sisterly relationship will do until Fringe comes back, etc.

- Speaking of awful television, I'm kind of stupidly looking forward to The X Factor starting up again next Saturday. IDK WHY, because usually I don't like any of the contestants and the judges annoy me and the song choices are dreadful, but still I always get really into it. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

- This is my favourite bullshit rumour ever. SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE THIS HAPPEN. I can't conceive of anything greater than Lady Gaga as a Doctor Who villain. Fuck, I'd settle for fic.

- Speaking of Who: this week's was awesome. I totally cried at the end. So sad that there are only three episodes left this series! Is there any word as to whether Karen Gillan is sticking around for the next series? She'd better be, but Martha and Donna only got one series each...

- I haven't watched the latest episode of Glee yet, on account of everyone saying it's the worst thing ever. Is there anything at all that makes it worth watching? Usually Glee is made of so much fail that unless there are some awesome musical numbers or Brittany and Santana being adorable and gay, I can't be dealing with it.

- Am writing something weird. Actually writing it, in a way I feel good about, instead of just coming up with ideas or scratching out a few awkward sentences, which has been the extent of my "writing" lately. I thought it was going to be something short, but it might turn into something longer. Possibly it'll turn into nothing! We'll see.

- Is it bad that I'm currently kind of more excited about the US Skins than the British Skins movie? I feel like the US Skins is a blank slate - NOW WITH ADDED LESBIANS - whereas the Skins movie has so much horrible baggage attached (read: series four) that it has to work extra hard to make me like it. And, what with gen 1 characters being involved, I bet the film is going to suffer from the exact same 'so many characters, so little time' problem that series four did. SORRY.

- Ugh, Monday tomorrow. Work. Last week I found out that I fucked up something kind of big but not irreversible, so now I have a ton of extra work to do. Also, my super-religious ex-monk colleague needs to stop talking to me about religion. I don't honestly care if he believes that the shootings in Cumbria were "the devil reminding us that he's there" but talking about religion with someone who has wildly opposing views to you = GUARANTEED AWKWARD. Ugh.

Whenever I don't post on LJ for a while - and this is probably the longest I've ever gone; nearly two weeks! - I feel like I need to apologise/explain, but I don't know if people even notice this kind of thing? I've still been around, reading every day and commenting here and there, but I guess because I've been in a bit of a fannish slump I haven't felt the need to post. THANKS FOR BREAKING MY SPIRIT, SKINS. Anyway, these are some of the things I might have posted about over the past two weeks if I weren't so lazy:

- Work sent me on TWO conferences last week. One was in Manchester, and was totally boring and mostly irrelevant to my work and basically a COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME, but the second one in Nottingham wasn't so bad. Although we might have spent, uh, forty minutes driving round the centre of Nottingham looking for the damn Hilton. Fuck you, one-way roads and teeny tiny road signs and GPS that kept cutting out! But I actually learnt something at that one, so yay for that, and then afterwards I got to meet up with my half-sister and niece and go to a super pretty café for cupcakes and bumbleberry juice. IDEK is bumbleberry is an actual thing or something they made up, but it was yummy.

- How good is this series of Doctor Who? Matt Smith is delightful as the Doctor and I'm already completely in love with Amy. It's basically my favourite thing ever when the companions get to save the day. ♥

- I signed up for femgenficathon, and... I'm not entirely sure why? I don't write gen! I've been finding it difficult to write anything lately! IDK, maybe it will inspire me to write this silly crossover idea I've got.

- On Tuesday I went down to London to meet up with lazy_daze and Zel and see Rufus Wainwright, and OMG, he was fantastic. It was just him and a piano, playing the new album interrupted for the first set and a bunch of older songs for the second set, and he sounded incredible. He messed up on the piano quite a bit, but it was kind of endearing, and he played so many songs I love. I can't believe I'd never seen him play Poses before! ♥

- Unfortunately, the day after I woke up feeling slightly weird, like I had the beginnings of a hangover even though I hadn't been drinking, and on the way home I just got worse and worse. Rushing to the train toilets in order to throw up and only just making it = not big on dignity. :(

- The leader debate last night was all kinds of boring, wasn't it? Still, well done, Mr Clegg; shame you can't win. I feel like I ought to be excited about this election because it's my first ever general election, but mostly I'm just super depressed that the Tories are almost definitely going to win.

- I'm going on holiday tomorrow! We're going down to Cornwall, so I feel kind of smug that our holiday plans haven't been thwarted by the giant volcanic ash cloud of DOOM.

God, this is a particularly soporific day at work. For some reason everyone else seems to be super busy today so there's not a whole lot of conversation to be had. Not even Zanna, the guide dog, wants to say hello to me today. And, okay, I've finished the induction period early and I have work I could be getting on with, but it's just vague ~planning stuff and I'm feeling lazy. WHY IS IT NOT HOMETIME YET.

Mostly I'm looking forward to getting home so I can watch American Idol. Fair warning: I'm getting hugely into it this year, so I'll probs end up talking about it a lot. I'm already completely in love with Siobhan and Crystal (and omg, Crystal pings my gaydar hard) and there are a couple more that I'm prepared to love if they give a knockout performance (Katelyn, Didi). The boys all suck, apart from Alex Lambert who's kind of adorable with his stagefright and mullet and surprisingly good voice, and Lilly is so hideous I want to PUNCH HER IN THE FACE. OMG, I hate her and her affected hipster bullshit so much.

Wow, I feel better getting that off my chest.

I'm still not feeling any better about this series of Skins - is it true that Jamie Brittain wrote Effy's episode? UGH - but I've started writing a kind of lulzy AU and that's cheered me up a bit. I don't want to say too much about it yet in case I end up hyping it up too much and then kind of abandoning it (y halo thar 80s AU), but it's a lot of fun so far. :D

TELEPHONE VIDEO TOMORROW. \o/